What is Success?

Success is a relative concept. It depends on what measurement we are using. Some may use quantitative tool like counting how much money you have? what is your investment? anything that comes with numbers and the rule of this game is the more you have the more successful you become.

Some people may also equate success with qualitative ones, like how meaningful your life is? do you find it worthy to live? are you happy with where you are now? so the basis is your sense of contentment and finding meaning for everything you do. As the saying goes, Life is a continuous search for truth and meaning.

I am also reflecting about this word most of the time. I am asking myself will you call yourself successful now? partly, I can answer yes because I've reached what I expected, i only dream before of flying once in airplane and I cannot count how many times I fly. I am only thinking of going to places in my city, but I traveled very far from what I am thinking of. I only dream to finish my bachelors degree and now I was able to pursue higher than what I dream of. A poor girl like me cannot imagine all the opportunities that God showered to me and I feel guilty because sometimes, when I am down I forgot how blessed am I. I may not have a husband and a child (since people in this society try to equate success with this measurement) but whether God give me this or not, I feel some sense that I have enough than what I have dream. Even more than enough!

But because man is such a very discontented person, I am still dreaming for more great things to happen because they said if we are settling for smaller goals therefore we don't give justice to our existence. I am still dreaming of other things to call myself successful. I also believed that God is such a very generous God therefore we cannot limit his power to give us more than we ask for, because he is not an ordinary person, he was superpower and extraordinary.

One dream, I haven't realized yet and that is to have my own NGO in which I can help other people who wanted to help themselves. I already started this dream when AGAC (Alternative Group of Advocates for Children's Concern) was established last 2002 sending street children to school, but it was not fully realized because of some personal reasons. But, I always dream of this and everything that I do are only my preparation for me to reach this dream.

Now, I am still helping myself because as they said "You cannot give, what you do not have" but then, if I am already settled. I will not stop realizing this dream.

By then, I can die for I served my purpose on earth.