One of my student before asked me "Mam why are we more better in English than in Filipino?" then I replied because we only had few Filipino language subjects than in English. Then, when we speak in English it sounds like we are more intelligent than when we speak in Filipino. Although, I don't really believe in it! I don't agree that if we speak good english we are more intelligent than those who can't because there are students who are soo good in numbers but not good in english like my engineering students who will have headache when I asked them to answer essay questions but it's just that there are more words in this language that we can used everyday than in Filipino because my first language is not Tagalog. I can also recall that even Filipino teachers in elementary their accent is still not in Tagalog but Bisaya which for me is really ironic. Maybe it will be better if they teach more words in bisaya than in tagalog. What happens then is we combined Tagalog and Bisayan words like "Isang kan-on at isang sud-an , magkano tanan?" Even now that I am in Manila and most of the time, I speak Tagalog there are still some words that I discovered like warde-warde, hinaharot, and what else? that's quite new to my head and still I do not master the language. well, for sure most filipinos had a problem with this.
"Gusto ko mang pangyamanin ang kaalaman ko sa Filipino" sounds like no one around me are interested to help, I think that is the advantage of those who study in UP because they are more in touch with the language. There are even books that they published in Tagalog but on the other hand I am also thinking like "Di man gani ko hawod sa Bisaya samot nasa Tagalog,(I am not even good in bisaya the more with tagalog) ha!ha!ha!". But of course, I am not also good in english (although, when I was in Canada one of the canadian asked me where did you learned your english? which is strange! but i think it is good for me that i am not good in english because it is hard to study russian if your mind was full with english because you have to turn into 360 degrees (but studying russian is also terrible! i can recall that in order to say hello or zdrasvuytye took me 3 months to pronouce it well, (eta nyet kharoshi! patamosha ya ne mago gavaret minoga slava, mozhit bit ya nada pratikavat) but at least i get over it after 3 months with my motivation of not relying too much with interpreter.
But I don't intend to sounds like real British nor Russian. I realized that only English People can be more fluent in their language we can just borrow their expressions like "What bloody day!" because if we really want to be like British it seems like we are just parrotting.
Anyway, I hope there will more better ways of teaching Filipino which will make a student more interested to learn the language maybe it will be better for the Filipino teachers to be more creative like "sa saliw ng tambol" a teacher will use dances or music like "palit-awit" but I think most Filipino teachers are more concern with grammar which is really boring.
For me,tagalog songs are more romantic than in english. I remember my Russian interpreter said if I write poems "I can only express it in Russian because my soul speaks". I salute the Russians for their love of their language and recalling eight hours of poem reading with them made me think, how idiot i am because I feel sleepy but I think that will really test once patience i only experience one night of poem reading here when I am still working with Mam Malou (my artist friend) who invited me once in artist night. But In Kazakhstan, concert means listening to poem readings so better prepare your patience or else? maybe you can utter the words "Shut up! i don't want to hear this blah,blah, blah, he,he,he.
Well, I think that's the reason that I cannot find my soul because I can neither find my language like where I am good at Mandaya, Bisaya, Tagalog, Ilonggo, English or Russian.
I have to look for it but i am scared that the answer is NONE OF THE ABOVE! You are just good with Ba, be, bi, bobo!
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