Living a Chaotic Life

Our discussion last night in Health and Social Science subject was all about Complexity theory. It's so fascinating to think about that in order to understand the order of the universe you have to think in a more complex way and you can only do this by using a more complicated lens. The world is so complex that you cannot just look at it in one lens or thinking of it in a linear relationship but you have to see in a more multifactorial causes.

Anyway, our professor cited the importance of complexity theory in understanding health aspects that you need not only to focus on the health attractors but also on social attractors. Complexity theory basically deals with systems, chaos, adaptation and attractors.

After all the discussions, I realized that it's really true that in order for us to know the rule of the universe we have to accept that complexity is already part of our system. Some people will just to simplify things but no matter how you simplify you have to accept that things are just complex in itself.

I love last night discussion especially when our teacher used the wheel of the ship as an analogy of how we are using complexity theory. According to her in the midst of the storm if you are using the wheel as your handle you don't know the direction but of course you know that you are moving to a particular direction that will tell you later on that you are moving on. The storms are the complixity in this world or we can even identify this as our dissipative structures.

Another strand of complexity theory is the chaos theory which says that in our lives there is always a disorder but it's normal because disorder will definitely lead to order and to disorder again and later to order. It's a natural cycle.

I can identify myself and the life I am living to chaos theory. Most of the time, I was thinking I was already living a normal life but later things becomes problematic or complicated. Like this year, I was thinking before that after I will finish my master in social work I will already settled but see things becomes complicated (there was a disorder) so I left the place of my work with uncertainty and then later a little bit order came in when I accepted the scholarship. I was thinking I can find my peace already until another disorder came in (my secret) but of course, this theory promise for order again. My realization goes farther than that since I was a kid I encountered so many complexities.

I am scared before of complexity (that's the reason I never left my bf for five years because I am scared of complications) Maybe because I was brought up by my mother to live in simple way of life but last night discussion I realized that I am living a chaotic life (but now, I am not scared of it).

Our professor said that it takes a transdisciplinary person to understand complexity theory. Now, I am not afraid if my life is chaotic for after all I want to be transdisciplinary. A person who can view things in different perspectives.