My volunteer prayer

I AM THANKFUL
Kokshetau, Kazakhstan Tuesday, February 03, 2009

I wanted to write about all the good things that I received from this 26th year of existence and I wanted to thank my God for all of these things for I believed that it was not only me who did it by myself but something extraordinary hands leads me and guide me in this short life that I have:

I am thankful to extraordinary God for all the blessings that I have in this life. I know it was not only me who work hard every day in this life but there was someone who guide me and gives me so much strength.

I am thankful for my parents who showed me their failures and because of that I have learned hard lessons in life and promise to myself not to commit the same mistakes again. I am thankful for the courage, determination and kindness that I inherit from them. I am thankful for having them for despite of all their shortcomings they have shown me unconditional love.

I am thankful for my brother and sister for their love and care. I am thankful that even if they do not always send me message or call me, I know in my heart, that they love me.

I am thankful that I’ve met a lot of people in my life that helps me without thinking of something in return. I am thankful to those people who were there in the most difficult times in my life. I am thankful because they showed me that in this life relationship with people was more important than material gain.

I am thankful that I have many friends from different races and background for they showed me that despite differences in the human face we still shared some similarities and common dreams. Making this world a little bit better for all of us.

I am thankful because despite the fact that I was born with nothing, I do not feel much insecurity. Most of the time I feel blessed and that I have more to give than to receive.

I am thankful for the chance that God was given me to see the different sides of the world for he let me see the wonder and greatness of his creation.

I am thankful that even if I do not see God but he continuously and forever exist in my unconscious mind and my faith in him was much stronger than my earthly desire.

I am thankful because he showed me several times that in prayer there is hope and in despair there is strength. I am thankful for feeling at peace that I’ve got that he gives me in prayer.

I am thankful for all the people who hate me for they showed me the ugliness of hatred.

I am thankful for all people who loved me because they showed me that love is greater feeling than hate.

There are times that I feel disappointed, depressed, and lonely, uncared, unloved and feel like I have so many responsibilities that supposed not meant for me.

But I always remember my teacher who told me that if you have many blessing in life you have many responsibilities and I think with so many things in life in which I am thankful there is no reason that I should not accept my responsibilities.

So now, I am thankful.

(I wrote this article as a prayer when I was working as volunteer in Kazakhstan. I clearly recall that I wrote this during the cold winter in Kazakhstan when I have nothing to do but look outside my window filled with snow or as they said some people experienced this time winter depression),